Goodbye

I don't know if I'll get a chance to update at the airport, or even in Chiang Mai. So.. Here's a short goodbye for everyone (:

Hope you had a very happy Christmas, and a good New Year coming up. 2009 sure went by quickly, and there will surely be many challenges to come in 2010 (big or small) but hang in there! If some lame dude like me is holding on to his dream, I don't see any reason why anyone wouldn't be able to do the very same.

I will keep chasing this dream of mine until I really really lose it. Hopefully never. Wish me luck for Chiang Mai Open, hopefully we will win something, and hopefully I will be another step closer to my dream.

I'll still be able to receive your messages, so if there's anything, message and I will try to get back to you asap.

If you're reading this. You are the Resistance. Ha. Be back 05/01/10 at night (:

Gwah

My mind is clear now. Or so it seems. I have made a decision and I will stick to it. This is for the best, although it might seem like it isn't.

Gosh its just slightly more than a week away from Christmas. What a year it has been. As usual though, I'll be ending it away from home, but I think I'll be feeling at home alright. The diamond's more than home enough for me, although it is only a secondary home.

Keep training hard. You won't regret it.

(=.=) .......

So it had to end that way. Must have taken a lot of effort.

I guess I didn't help much either.

That's why I was such a bum from the start. Can't trust myself enough to face these problems on my own. I think that's called running away, but... I think I've got no choice. Not right now anyway.

Goodbye.

Mixed up.

It feels so weird that something like that's happening right now, just after I resigned myself to the lack of it. Maybe its the chronological proximity that drew such a reaction from me. I'd thought it was a sign. Maybe God was trying to prove me wrong somewhat. Now though I look back at it and it looks like a test for me. It practically SCREAMS get your act together. It was another lesson for me.

He has such unique ways of teaching us. I'd expect that though, after all He did define 'unique' to begin with.

Actually right now, I really feel slightly confused over what to do with things the way they are. Where to go from here? I would very much like to know the answer, but the fact that I'm such a cow really doesn't help. I cannot help it. I just want to feel that way. That feeling that I've lost out on ever since forever. Now that I can feel that way, should I continue on this path just because of it? What if the feeling fades?

I'm afraid to know.

I'm not going to let myself be controlled by feelings and that's that.

勉強

SAMURAI SLASH. What a way to end GEK2022. It was a really useful module, but I'm not too sure about the exams. Gee. The most difficult exam I've had in a while, and my first ever open book exam. Go figure why its so difficult. Anyway, SC1101E yesterday wasn't all that wonderful either. I'm slightly worried about question 4 now that I look back at it. I was purely theorising the number of classes from infinity to 3 to 2. Hope that works on the examiner.

Now on to JS1101E to-morrow. Then.. EL and MNO. Hope things hold on.

Been dying to train. What with watching Major and all. I want to play softball, even baseball, because I love the game. It seems like in Singapore there aren't many people who can understand the desire to go far with a sport, what more support it. Maybe I'll be lucky enough to one day find such a person who understands this.

At any rate, I will give my best. On and off the field. Show the world.

じゃ、またな。

Kecewa

Kecewa, kecewa lagi. Bener2 ga tahan lagi nih. Bodoh amat.

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Thinking too much- when combined with the fact that I'm too naive- adds up to quite a bit of a problem. Is there an off button somewhere?

Nowadays, well, I keep getting the feeling that I'd be better off elsewhere. It may be true that the best will be able to cope in any environment, but I'm nowhere near that level yet. Please give me some time off somewhere away from this nonsense. Maybe I'll find the way sooner.

Keep trying.

To... Zanarkand?

Looks like it. Definitely not to the study table. Go figure. It seems like I study less and less the closer I get to the exams. What awesomeness. I've only covered Japanese history. Hoo boy.

At any rate, lessons have ended, and I seem to suddenly have a lot of time on my hands. I should really go and use this time to train huh. Speaking of which, I went to Towers training today and got the new Towers Japan memorial shirt (which totally looks like the Japan jersey) so that's really nice. After that.. Well, lunch. At Sangokushi Ryoriya at Riverside View or something beside awesome Menya Shinchan. Ate a lot.. Ugh. Overall I had quite a bit of fun though, except for the fact that the field today looked more like a paddy field than a softball field.

Now to study some more.

Beginning and the End

He left. Just like that. One moment here, gone the next.

His limbs... They felt different now. He could move them perfectly. His body felt no more pain, no more aches like which he has felt over the years. His mind was clear. Clearer than ever before. It was like his memories were now laid out in front of him, waiting to be rediscovered.

Around he looked, and there he spotted a clock; unmoving under his curious gaze. It was probably then that he realized that he was no more a being bound by mortality. He could move time at will, and it was effortless. Timelessness was his, but where should he go? Not into the Light. Not yet. He had to do something before he could leave in peace.

He travelled, far and wide, to see them all. One by one. One by one he visited them, and one by one, he said a prayer in his heart. These people he loved deeply, and here he was to see them one last time.

"...I pray all these in the name of the Lord. Amen"

As he prayed for them, their souls cried out to him in agony- in protest- of their lives.

"I'm living in apathy of God right now."
"Work's all piled up. I don't have time!"
"I'm lying to myself."
"I'm a complete, wretched sinner..."

One look, however, and their physical expressions told a different story. They were wearing masks, most of them. So that was what the problem was. Another prayer was in order. Blessings were all he could give, but there he knew that there was Another who would help them.

A smile wrought itself across his face.

"Thank you Lord."

He then touched their souls and left, up and up, into the beautiful realms of which he had believed to exist; welcomed by a Light, embraced by the One.

"It is done. Now rest here in peace, deserving Servant. Reap here the fruits of your labour."

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In memory of a beautiful life, a loving grandfather, and a man pure at heart.

Trust

So much has happened.

Yeah in fact so much has happened I couldn't even find time to breathe easy, much less blog. Happenings, as experience taught, come in two packages. The good and the bad. I've had both. Lots of both, in fact. I'm still reeling from, I don't know, shock? That so many things have happened over such a short period of time, its just overwhelming sometimes.

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Friends. You make some, you lose some. You go on in life, you find out that people aren't so trustworthy anymore. It is appalling- and pitiful, really- that people have to be like that. It really isn't worth getting upset about; except for the fact that I actually bothered to trust, like I would trust any other. My most sincere thanks for breaking the trust I placed, for you have shown me how careless I was with something so precious. My gratitude goes to you, for teaching me a lesson in growing up, for teaching me to be distrusting. I am sure it will take me far in life; but please know that you have robbed something from me which I treasure so dearly. How are you going to pay for that despicable act of yours? You have brought me closer to your level, by taking that priceless treasure away from me. I will try not to let it evolve into hatred, because I know you will face the consequences someday. One fine day.

Meanwhile, take this in. I will never, ever sink to your level. I will not stoop as low as that. I can only hope you see the error in your ways and change. Change, for goodness' sake, or you'll regret it. You'll be such a pathetic, despicable thing for all your life.

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I think that's enough for today. I will continue, but that will be after EL mid-terms. You keep track of evolution, before it gets out of hand. Exactly what I'm trying to do.

Mm.

How brothers can be made, with a simple little nudge in the elbow and a smile.

It was heartwarming, and I was exceedingly fortunate, to be able to bear witness to such a wonderful encounter between two men. It was really thought-provoking how such a profoundly beautiful phenomenon can occur in such a common setting.

Watch this space for the full story coming in a bit. I'm lazy.

mmm..

Today everything just went back to what it was before, and it was as if it was all just a pleasant, pleasant dream; its not a dream though, and boy am I glad that the past few weeks have added so much colour to my life.

Although a large part of the enjoyment was depressingly ephemeral, it has really been a pleasure knowing that life just got a little bit better, that something within that experience itself has transcended the boundaries of the superficial and into the realms of the infinite. It was a very comforting fact to know- that I have gained something that cannot possibly be obtained by material means.

Now the issue is making sure I replace those flimsy gates to the realms of the infinite, and lock it up too.

Geez

I still did the roof in the end, but its alright! I'm still doing my part to help.

Today is going to be a good day! Going about my usual routine of rag and training later, so I'd better be eating my breakfast now..

Keep the spirit up Jo!

People..

Most of the time it isn't really what they do, how they behave or even how they treat others? Everyone's got something to be proud of, everyone's got a good side to them, and most importantly.. Every single person you meet, whether on the streets or anywhere else, they have their own dignity.

You've got no right to be stepping all over others that way, kiddo.

Tomorrow I'm SO going to do something that's not going to be on the roof.

hay

So arts camp was super. Ah, sorry. It was AWASAMA. Super has no As at all :D

I made quite a few friends back in camp, and they're awesome! But I can't help noticing that it is a different world that I'm stepping into. The people I meet are.. Different. Just different in a way that I currently cannot identify, and its pretty scary to be sailing right into these gray, unknown waters.

Yeah, maybe my definition of 'normal' has to be altered a bit to accommodate certain quirks, or maybe it is others' definition of 'normal' that has to be altered to accommodate me. From what I've learnt though.. Friends don't really need to be 'normal', do they?

I guess what's of essence is being true to myself and not letting the environment change much of who I am (:

ジョがんばって！

lalala

Orientation coming up pretty soon, quite looking forward to it but I have a feeling the flu's going to ruin things for everyone. Like how I had to take the trouble to dig everywhere to find that doofus thermometer to bring to camp. Started out bad already. Plus, I don't have a single yellow shirt and I'm supposed to wear one on the first day of camp. Awesome.

Have to start packing soon.. ジョさんがんばって！

They all live in an imaginary world, of which our world is but a shade of. Wonder if I'll find it?

大丈夫か。。。

Stayed at home for the whole of today just sitting around singing, cooking, doing the housework and stoning. Surprisingly, it felt so darn good.

YEAH!

Anyway, here's something I wrote a while back on certain plane rides... Note: read only if you're feeling patient :D

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And I'm typing this on board of a plane. Wow. Haha its my first time doing this! Quite the coolness. Everything's so calm here. The environment is way cool for writing because I'm actually sitting at a window seat? Awesome. I look out the window as I type and I see the beautiful beautiful sky right beside me. I should be doing this for every plane ride I have from now on. Window seats for the win! :D

Surprisingly I am feeling pretty good now, even though I wasn't feeling overly enthusiastic about this trip. I'll be like, alone. Plus I have to depend on others for transport, everywhere I go; a feeling that I don't really like but whatever. I've had that all my life anyway. Haha.

I still can't get over this feeling! Writing with the big blue sky around me. Its definitely the epitome of coolness! Probably every writer's dream to be writing in an environment like this. That's if my laptop battery doesn't run out, but it says 1.5 hours left which is AWESOME I'll keep typing until the announcement for landing comes. Hehe. I don't know if I'm supposed to be filling up that white form they were giving out earlier but it probably won't matter. At the most I'll just fill it up there and then. Whee. Ahh. TURBULENCE. My goodness! OHMAN. WOAH. AWWAGAHHHH THIS IS EXCITING! :D My glass of water nearly spilled on my computer I had to drink it all up right away and it was so shaky I very nearly couldn't drink the water up cleanly! GEE TURBULENCE! AHHHH SEAT BELT SIGN IS ON. I look out the window and its all CLOUD. EKSCITING. HAHAH. As you can see I'm typing this LIVE. On-the-spot account of what's happening on scene! How amazing is that YO I should be a reporter/journalist! WOAH THE PLANE JUST DIPPED A BIT. WOOT. Readers PLEASE PRAY THAT I'LL WALK OUT OF THIS ALIVEEEEEE OHMAN IT DIPPED AGAIN!

Sudden peace and quiet.

Just like the calm before a storm.

BUT NOTHING HAPPENS! HAHA. Oh the seat belt sign is off now! Everything is clearing up around the plane and its all bright blue and beautiful clouds again. WHEE. -continues typing. This is awesomeeee. I'm like lost in my own world while my grandma stones and the other passengers are sleeping/eating chips/stoning. But this is FUN. Live reporting from the skies xD They're trying to scam us now with $2 newspapers and $7698240341987243 drinks. I will NOT get scammed! Woosah! Ok I'm too high haha I was actually smiling while typing the turbulence part because it was all SHAKY and everyone else was omg-ing while I was SMILING and typing non-stop. Kool as cool.

Okay I'm much calmer now.

Just desperately hoping that I'll make it out alive so that this "article" will be published. Its something worth sharing! Crikey the skies outside are GORGEOUS. -snaps photos with my no-network blackberry. Still looking for that elusive AWESOME PICTURE. HHHH. I'll keep searching! :D Yay okay I took more photos now. GOOD SHOTS! Hope they look good on the computer. Hehe. Ooh here comes a nice cirrus cloud! (Jo is so proud that he is able to name the clouds after so many years' passing of secondary school geography, that is, if he didn't name it wrongly!) Nice cirrus cloud is getting blocked by the wings. Gotta be patient! Patience is a virtue, and even more so for photographers! Most beautiful shots come with a little bit of patience in them (: like how one waits for the sunrise before it actually rises. I don't think you get what I meant but the passage continues! Hehe! Just saw one stretch of clouds which looked like steps leading up to some beautiful cloudscape. OO. BOOTIFUL :D I like! I think I have some NICE shots! Patience.. Hehe. OH WEIRD! My laptop battery actually shows 1 hour and 45 minutes remaining now! It actually increased with the passing of time YAY my dad bought me such an AWESOME LAPTOP with ever-increasing battery! Hurrah! OHMY I GOT A MONEY SHOT. WALLPAPER TIME! I'm so proud of myself gee I got lucky today! Yesterday's decision to "sleep early because tomorrow might be good" really worked out AWESOME. I'm over the sky now! Quite literally, yes. Hahah. I'm flyingggg. JUst got another beautiful sky shot! Woosah! I am NEVER going to sit anywhere other than a window seat NEXT TIME! HAHA. So if you ever sit on the same plane as me.. GIVE UP YOUR WINDOW SEAT. WINDOW SEATS MAKE ME HAPPY. MORE MONEY SHOTS! $$$$$ But no one'll want to buy my pictures I guess since it was taken with a blackberry not-so-zai camera. BWAH. WISH I HAD A NICE BIG PRO CAMERA SO I CAN SELL MY B-E-A-UTIFUL PICTURES.

Oh gee this is like the longest thing I've written since FOREVER. -cheers. AYE AYE CAPTAIN landing soon but right after he said soon.. He said the remaining time is about 40 minutes more. Some sense you've got there Captain! But since you're a cool ang moh who is so informative I will forgive you. First time I've forgiven someone on 30000+ FEET YAY I HAVE MY GOOD DEED OF THE DAY AND A SECOND COOL FIRST TIME EXPERIENCE. O-VERWHELMING. So many first times today! Ooh there's a money shot coming snapsnapsnap. If you ever read until here I SALUTE you because I have a feeling whatever I just typed was a whole load of crap! BUT! Pretty entertaining eh? :D BWAAAH -yawns how come I'm feeling sleepy -takes off cap and scratches head. Oops my battery is now 1 hour and 20 minutes LEFT AND ITS LANDING I GOTTA GO BYE!

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Return trip:

And again, typing another note on the plane. Haha. Everyone around's pretty tired I must say, the lights went out just now and I can surely bet that the whole plane went asleep. Was a pretty awesome feeling to be typing with the blue sky all over, but this is just okay. Everything around is dark! Compensated by the beautiful lights which are to come I guess. No pictures to snap because everything's all dark and gloomy. Maybe later when we can see the coast of Singapore?

I can't believe they gave us honey roasted peanuts! Pretty considerate aren't they? :D But we could have brought our own snacks if we really wanted to. The water's the most important part of this refreshments package they gave us. Life-saver. Heheh. I left my precious cap at Angke, which means that I will be going back soon because I can't bear to leave the cap there!

Wonder whats going to happen when I get back to Singapore? I'm implicitly being pushed towards the direction of NUS but I'm, not really sure if I want to go there. Everyone talks like FASS is such a loser place. Not that I care, but that's not good for the 'prestige' part of University education is it? Plus, I've been like, hypnotized since I went to the building itself and heard what they had to say about the education there. I don't know if I'm making the right choice though.. Let's just hope everything clears up when I go back. Still have about an hour to the flight left. Wonder what I should be doing? Haha. The act of typing continuously without end is pretty exhausting especially when I'm constantly gazing at the screen. Bad for the eyes. Maybe. No idea.

I can't open the water they gave us! This is a super disaster. Lips are uber dry. I like flying though, don't know why. Maybe because I've had many good memories on a plane? Yeah that's how a human lives, he keeps going back to the things that makes him happy. Chocolate tastes good because of past memories of chocolate consumption. Somehow I think carnal desires are the main drivers of humanity today, instead of rational thinking. May not be true, but it definitely is a plausible thought.

I wonder why I type so smoothly when I'm on a plane? My thinking doesn't get jammed at all hahah the words just flow like water from a tap. OOOOOOH WE'RE HALFWAY THERE, OOOOOH LIVING ON A PRAYER. Awesome song. I miss Pekanbaru. YEAH THANKS JON BON JOVI you made me half-sad. Wonder if I'll get to go there? Still have three months left before university starts, my gosh that's a long while. Hahah. But if I'm going to NTU it'll be.. July. Before I have to go for orientation.

Can't wait to start uni! (: It's always nice to have a new beginning somewhere somehow. Another chance to be the man you wished you could have been. I threw that away in JC hahah I definitely wasn't who I wanted to be. Wish I could have done a lot of things better! But things that happened.. I can't undo them. Damage's been done. Hahah. A man's gotta do what a man's gotta do. Regrets are always there lol its just how seriously you take it, and how serious the whole darn regret thing is.

Ooh bad weather they said. Shaky planes are pretty cool. Wonder how long this post will look when I publish it on my blog.

I miss my cap, and I'm kinda lazy to go on typing because I've typed what I wanted to type. Shall be listening to backstreet boys now! Woowhee. Ain't nothing but a mistake tell me why I never wanna hear you say I want it that wayyyyyyyyyyyyy.

Peace.

He

He always hoped that he could be somebody important to others, somebody who could make it if he puts his effort to it.

But he now sees the flaws in him, and finds that some things within and without will never allow him to make it.

How he hopes he could be just that little bit better, but he is not. How he wishes he could be someone else altogether, but he will never be.

But he still dreams, he lives his life as best he can. He hopes, still, that one day he'll be the man he wished he could be.

Then he realizes that he didn't know exactly how the man in his wishes lived his life.

We are THE champion.

And so I shouted myself hoarse today but it was all worth it, kinda. Hehe.

So proud of you guys and I'm sure you'll make it three :D

If you get murdered I'll avenge your death

learning?

Yeah, one grows up to learn that learning has to be constant. Whether it is learning from a teacher, a book, or even by derivation from certain phenomena occurring around oneself; both the tangible and the intangible always have a part to play in our learning. That is, if you bother to use these experiences for self-improvement.

Which makes me wonder why I'm still pretty much unlearned in certain areas, areas in which I have always wanted to change. No wonder shit happens. There's always a reason why..

softball

Sometimes its a good hurt, and it feels like I'm alive. Hawhaw. Don't know why but I just feel that way.

One of the happiest trainings I've had in a long, long time :D mega loads of thanks to Jun Yu and Eunice (sorry again D:) because our super killer combination REALLY scored a lot of runs. Gosh it was the funnest thing I've done in a pretty long time.

I really love playing softball and baseball :D looks like I found a sport for life. Heheh, but I'm just pretty worried about how far I'll be able to go with the sport. After all, softball or baseball isn't even close to popular in countries like Singapore.

Juniors please have fun at Raffles on Wednesday (: and don't drink cheetah.

one piece

Been a while since I read any comics, but one piece is definitely one
of the best series I've read yet. Can't wait to read more!! :D

Hey

Give me some time to say good night and goodbye.

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Won't happen. Haha. Shall be leaving tomorrow morning. 10.30 flight. Frankly, maybe this will be just what I need to get things going again.

If only things weren't so terribly awkward maybe I'd be much more at ease right now. Such unease.. Gee. I feel like lying down on a field of grass and watching the great blue sky turn amber.

If that can EVER happen to me. I'm beginning to believe these things never truly happened for anyone in particular, really.

It's overwhelmingly weird how people are so hard to understand. It is sometimes so hard to even understand oneself, and I guess life is that caring yet merciless teacher who desperately wants us to learn of our follies, be it through hardships or even enjoyment. Big question is, however, whether we truly are able to learn.

It seems that the human mind is built in such a way that folly is unyielding, while wisdom's grip holds lightly. Chaos accentuates folly, calm strengthens wisdom.

Eventually the side we favor, be it of conscious choice or not, will win. The fruits, bitter or sweet, come as a reward for the seeds we sow. For some, it might be too late. For some, second chances come along.

And the man of folly builds his house upon the shaky foundation of flowing sand. Yet again.

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Wish the disparity in treatment wasn't so darn obvious.

Living with heart; it isn't enough at all. You'll need some brains for problem-solving, more brains for discretion, even more brains to know why the hell others are doing what they do. Plus, brain-heart coordination to not be a complete ass and act like a dumb i-don't-know-anything dude when in fact you already know all there is to it.

You just don't want to face reality don't you Jo.

How were we supposed to know that the Earth Hour event was so crappy? Gee whiz. Yeah, being in town for all the Earth Hour buzz was pretty cool, since not many companies/shops bothered with turning their lights off.

They did turn the Singapore Flyer lights off but the bloody thing was still spinning.

Then came the great light-up. The candle-holding fiesta had so few people in it they couldn't make the phrase they were going to make, which was okay, but what the heck? They told us to be there at 6.30 pm and nothing happened until whoknowswhen. We ended up watching the awesome 24-hour tag videos on my phone for about an hour before getting in line, and woohoo the street lights were on and covering all our candlelight. Sat there for a while before.. Running off and leaving the candles behind.

Walked over to Esplanade Park to find that it wasn't much either, so we just walked away. The plan was to go for dinner at Marina Square, but we ended up in front of the Esplanade to watch the even-greater light-up.

It was 8.30 pm. The end of Earth Hour! Shaw house blasted their corporate logo through the sky almost immediately, the yellow Maybank emblem glowed in pride and the Esplanade itself started sparking up. By about 8.45 it was business as usual and we went on for dinner at Carl's.

Speaking of energy conservation.. I just burned an air ticket today :D

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Now playing: Bon Jovi - Livin' On A Prayer
via FoxyTunes

And so Japan won their second World Baseball Classic, with Ichiro making that winning hit and Darvish ending the 10th with a K. The best game I have EVER watched; the intensity and the excitement in that game could never be equalled.

I am SO going to the World Baseball Classic one day. Get all my Japan gear and wear it everyday.

How I wish I could be part of a team that would go to the World Baseball Classic. I would train every single day to switch to baseball, and train so hard, because it is at present only a dream. A dream that seems impossible to achieve. Not only because of my incapabilities. When will a country like Indonesia ever go to the Classic?

They say you have to be the change that you want to see in the world, start it with the man in the mirror. Maybe I will, someday, make my dream come true. They did say that if you can see it, then you can be it. I believe that even Ichiro started out as a kid with a dream.

Suddenly inspired to start typing stuff again. Of course, I have been gone for so long nobody would give a damn whether I type stuff or not, but it still is a pretty useful tool to be recording these things down for a good read in the future (: its pretty cool when you read all these notes of the past (and not even remembering that you actually wrote them), and its like watching yourself grow up to become who you are now. Tracking your "evolution" into what you are today, and the best thing is that the journey never stops.

Been busy doing nothing, playing Heroes V, going to university open houses, thinking about uni courses.. It all just goes around in a routine cycle. Can't wait to just get the applications over and done with, but it DOES affect my future after all. In a big way too. So I'd better be giving it more thought.. Well if you're in this situation too, or you have the same experience, chat me up maybe you'll give me some inspiration. Hahah.

I wonder what everyone else is doing? Well, for me because I can't work in Singapore, life's just like a holiday of sorts for now. Gee. It does get pretty lonely/boring out here like this. Hope I find something meaningful to do or I'm really going to become a real sloth.

Meanwhile, hope everyone's doing fine (:

AAABB FOR THE WIN!!!!!

Too long, too long. It's been too long and it's going to be so long. The uncertainty of the future, whether on the tangible or intangible side, is taking a lot out of me. As usual. I, for one, like to think that I have learnt many things over the past month. It was a month full of joy, and so packed with learning that one would have to be a complete idiot not to learn anything from it. Thank goodness I took the opportunity to go over to Pekanbaru, and I will go back again. I PROMISE. It is just a matter of time.

Anyway, I'm pretty much missing the peaceful life that I had over there. The warmth that I felt. It was all so precious to me, I hope I'll never forget the feeling. I admit I could have dealt with a lot of things in a better way, but the simple act of acting in a not-so-desirable way is in itself a lesson to be learnt. It was great to know that there still exists a place where I can just feel like I'm at home. After all, I've been moving around all the time and as a teenager the instability pretty much took the concept of "home" to a different level.

Just a short update before the results come out tomorrow. Gee. I miss my cousins too D: hope everything will be alright.

Leaving Singapore during the Chinese New Year period and for a pretty long time after that. Going to be gone for a good long while I'd say.. Hope everyone will find some fire in whatever you're doing because the fire is what keeps you going, be it in school, on the field, or even while playing!

Oh and please gets lots of angpaos so you can treat me whoever you are :D

White four I won't forget your timing. Yeahhh.

Besides that, hello again people! Just trying to write something really, no particular inclination to post something with any specific objectives. Been stoning on even days and playing ball on odd days for the past week or so. Nothing particularly interesting really, other than that primary school dinner we're going to have on Monday! Gee. Looking forward to THAT. Haven't seen a lot of people for a very long time, really curious what everyone's like now. I still remember what it was like 6 years ago. Time does fly, somehow. Everyone's pretty busy and all, haven't really had time to meet. Most people just kinda forget your existence somehow..

Just went around with Benedict Chen Yang and Kian Hwee today trying to find the right place to go, and apparently one man's opinion swayed the fate of many as we shifted our outing place right after a short debate. Whatever though! The shift saw the meal prices go south so it wasn't all that bad a change.

Let's see how things go, maybe it'll work out fine (:

Okay let's just say this.. My blog isn't dead! Well maybe because I really had too much to say and I didn't know where to start. Thank Desiree and Rebecca Tan for inducing me to post something! It really has been a while since I have written anything that is fit for another person to read, and it looks like the hiatus has spared me no negativities. I am practically an English dumbo right now and I can't seem to be able to find the words I need anymore. I really should be starting on something that'll be of some productive utility!

So! I shall begin with the Indonesia trip I had at the end of 2008. Remember the post that I posted! (scroll down if you don't) I was really having fun on THAT trip, and the subsequent trip to Pekanbaru was great too! I really missed my cousins and I didn't even know it until I met them again. It was great to be able to hang out with them! Will be seeing them soon though!

After that came the Chiang Mai trip. It certainly could have been SO MUCH BETTER! So instead of going to like, Seacon Square, we went to bee farms with no bees. Gee! At least the Night Bazaar and the Walking Street made the trip worthwhile.. Of course, meeting Nadd again was really nice! :D Too bad she couldn't have been our liaison officer. PLUS, we ate TOO MANY BUFFETS. AHH. It was terrible! Like, about 800+ baht of my 4700 baht was burnt off for compulsory buffet meals. I've had enough of buffet! Arghhhh. All the compulsory stuff added up to about 2000+ baht and that's like HALF MY MONEY GONE. Ugh. Shopping had to be cut down by a lot. Gee. Oh and I didn't countdown to the New Year! First time in many years. Ain't that awesome. Hahahah. I can't believe I slept through the New Year countdown! Both Guojie and I missed it. I guess we were ultra tired! It was a happy day though, New Year.. Although we lost to O'boyz. Hahahah. Hengyang and his nemesis William who whacked two home runs off him on two exact same pitches. Poor HY. At least you have ****** 7!

Okay I have to cut things here because its like time to sleep. Hahah. I'll try posting photos next post! Ciao~

Woot

I seriously have to find a day to just sit down and blog about the end of 2008. Too many things to blog about and too little commitment. Hahah. Let's just say that the end of 2008 has really been awesome for me.

Sleepy.Ugh.

*snores*

Hello Singapore. Again.