i'm a mess

haha im going crazy.. everyone's so happy and cheerful, im trying to be happy and cheerful too..

but i cant..

all the time im troubled by all these.. i dunno why
anything im doing,

nightmares consume me in my sleep
thoughts freeze me up all the time

i can be joking this moment
and feeling down the next

sometimes i just feel like lying down and think things through
when those moments come
i am always unable to do anything to relieve myself of the suffering
the torture
the agony

all i can do
is pray

God help me

Shred me up when november ends

hi kiddos.. long time no blog eh.. much has happened since the last post..

well, im in a state of depression now..
why is this happening to me? i really cant go on like this..
i cannot say who, coz gossips will start flying around like migratory birds..
but if i keep it to myself, can i handle it?
can i handle the feeling? that i cannot tell the person, in fear of causing trouble?
argh..

im such a loser
im such a failure
im such an idiot
im such a freak
im such a let down

im a goner

get me? imma goner..

imma idiofailosefreakoletdown..

HAHAHA

it's just that.. i cannot bring myself to say a thing.. whenever i think of it, whenever the person looks away.. i can feel my heart sink.. i just cant get near enough..

someone spare me this suffering

shred me up when november ends

zhng my blog =）

heyy.. welcome to my blog.. my name Jo.. this post is called "zhng my blog"..
you got blog, you dont like? come look for me, Jo..

Dont get it?
never mind.. insider joke.. anyway i'm back from Bangkok.. so will blog more often..



my trip was kinda ok, albeit a challenging one.. The only fun part of the trip, i'd say, was the matches.. wish i could play more of those.. the b div literally just played one team, the Thai National Womens' Team.. the rest was left to the C div to settle, although in the last match against Ramkhamhaeng University we played 2 innings..

matches = 爽!!

the matches were as fun as they were challenging.. they hit the inside so well that i had to whack the outside.. good training i would say.. more than half their team were batting left though, so keeping them down was easier.. imagine pitching against a whole team of rightie inside hitters..

ok anyway, bread is my friend.. others dont understand my pain, and i wont bother explaining it.. so i just have to 忍 all this treatment im getting just because every other person can eat other stuff properly and i cant.. 哼.. everyone come on la, just piss me off so i can drive myself to the grave earlier..

i wont write about shopping coz all it'll do is flame singapore shopping malls.. 你们如此 kiasu and 奢侈, dont waste more land to build a Seacon Square in Singapore.. Waste land only.. thats why i wont say anything..

i dont understand. 这么多麻烦,乃是为了一件这么小的事. 我只可以唉声叹气..

be back soon =)

Rahh..

havent blogged in aeons, and no one's tagged in aeons.

what a sad blog =) ..

Holiday! well, never thought this day would come so fast.. ohwells, but i bet it'll end as fast as it came. am i right folks?

"YEAH!"

lol.. bored stiff.. double knockout cancelled.. Rahh!! now i cant sleep.. itching to whack a ball as hard as i can..

"Umph!" (me =) )

"TONG!" (bat, silly..)

*zoooomm* (ball zooming thru the air)

"Clank!"(sound of the ball hitting a car outside)

"YES!"(sound of happy me =) )

can't imagine how good it'll feel.. Rahh!!

training later, but i'll bet my pillow that i'll be pitching the whole training.. sad la.. Rahh!! what with yh away in thailand.. i guess this is just my desserts, i ps him for dunno how many holidays already =) ..

sian!! my computer cannot support chocobo racing in FF7!! Rahh.. now i have to abandon my game.. (T.T) .. back to mvp..

holiday homework?

"got two months to do lah."

Thats what they all say. so i'm gonna surprise myself and attempt to complete my hoomework!

i know i wont =)

one more thing

Chinese O level.. not sure if the A is mine.. Rahh.. got 5 months to wait..

All in all, everything in this blog comes up to one conclusion

RAHHHH!!!!!!!!