Hey

Give me some time to say good night and goodbye.

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Won't happen. Haha. Shall be leaving tomorrow morning. 10.30 flight. Frankly, maybe this will be just what I need to get things going again.

If only things weren't so terribly awkward maybe I'd be much more at ease right now. Such unease.. Gee. I feel like lying down on a field of grass and watching the great blue sky turn amber.

If that can EVER happen to me. I'm beginning to believe these things never truly happened for anyone in particular, really.

It's overwhelmingly weird how people are so hard to understand. It is sometimes so hard to even understand oneself, and I guess life is that caring yet merciless teacher who desperately wants us to learn of our follies, be it through hardships or even enjoyment. Big question is, however, whether we truly are able to learn.

It seems that the human mind is built in such a way that folly is unyielding, while wisdom's grip holds lightly. Chaos accentuates folly, calm strengthens wisdom.

Eventually the side we favor, be it of conscious choice or not, will win. The fruits, bitter or sweet, come as a reward for the seeds we sow. For some, it might be too late. For some, second chances come along.

And the man of folly builds his house upon the shaky foundation of flowing sand. Yet again.

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Wish the disparity in treatment wasn't so darn obvious.

Living with heart; it isn't enough at all. You'll need some brains for problem-solving, more brains for discretion, even more brains to know why the hell others are doing what they do. Plus, brain-heart coordination to not be a complete ass and act like a dumb i-don't-know-anything dude when in fact you already know all there is to it.

You just don't want to face reality don't you Jo.