中国寻根之旅2005，China Winter Camp 2005 广州 Guang Zhou

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Hey guys! im back from china! 2 weeks passed so quickly! how i wish time had passed slowly during the camp..
anyway, if u dunno what this camp is about, it's a camp about chinese culture etc..
you might say, "a camp about chinese culture? 2 weeks? nah.."
thats what many people said, and i bet they regretted saying that
trust me, once you've stepped in the camp, you wont wanna go back. so just how amazing is this camp?


firstly, this camp is international, with over 300 people from many countries all over the world.. there's australia, vanuatu, indonesia, south africa, mauritius, new zealand etc.
i made some really awesome friends! we've only parted for less than a day and i'm missing them already! =) you guys are really awesome! you people have changed my life, you people made me a better person! heheh.. special thanks to you people from vanuatu! you guys rock! also the group who always gathers at room 617! you guys are the best friends i've ever had! yay!
grace, david, james, brendan, justin, claire, joy, johanna, stephen and many more.. i wanna thank you guys for being such good friends! especially people from bus no.5! those who supported me when i was making such a fool of myself for 2 hours on the bus.. i still cant believe i stood there blabbering for 2 hours! must be the effect of the moral support you people gave!=)


it's so cool coz you get to experience winter! yeah! cool blue winter! =) even though the cold weather brought us some problems, everything was worth it! i wont forget eating ice cream in the cold weather, wearing a short sleeve shirt out just to find out how cold it can get.. the only thing so sorely missing was snow! it would have been so darn perfect if we had snow!


and oh yeah, grace and david, here's a special thanks from me..















you guys are the best! rock on!

Grace,

Thanks for everything! You know, on the 1st day while i was sitting at the corridor praying, i prayed to God to spread some warmth around in the cold winter.. Guess what? the next morning i met you on the opening ceremony! And after the opening ceremony we became friends! and after we became friends, i had the time of my life! haha.. Thank God for all he has done, through you He has changed my life, coz in you i see a kind of enthusiasm with the coming of every new day.. everything that happens to you or the people around you, you do your best to make everything right again.. you cared for everyone the way only a true friend would.. knowing you has made me realise my shortcomings and weaknesses! im gonna try my best to be someone like you! you have been a source of comfort and happiness not only for me, but for the rest as well!.. i'm pretty sure you're an angel sent by God for us, coz i feel happy everytime you're around! miss ya! anyway, you guys are really so special to me that i cried when you went off on the bus this morning, only you didnt see! haha.. i dont cry easily! i wont be ashamed of myself for crying, coz you guys are such precious friends and i'll really miss you people! i promise i'll visit sydney someday and maybe you can take me to vanuatu! =)

anyway, i'm gonna study hard this year!

Thank you! Terima kasih! Arigato Gozaimaz! 谢谢你! Danke!

P.S. your handwriting is awesome! i just read your public profile, no wonder you're so good! designing is your hobby! haha.. keep in touch ok? i'm gonna write a letter over soon! =)
hope you like the presents i gave you back there in china! the cards, the cap, the doll, the shirt.. you still owe me ice cream and i still owe you mc donalds!
and yeah, once i manage to live my life the way you do, i think i would have succeeded in life!.. im gonna keep praying for you guys everyday, stay happy always and keep in touch!! and yeah, what you wrote on my hand, thanks! but i think i'll have to rub it away T.T on the 2nd of January, school starts on the 3rd! i cant bear to rub it away though, lets see if i can get away with it =P.. at least you know i'll still have it on my arm on new year's day! ^^

and ya, i've laid out a 2-year plan for myself! hear, hear! im going to finish my 'o' levels here in singapore, which will be until the end of 2006, then i'll go to pre-university straight away! then on to New South Wales! i havent told my parents yet.. im only planning to tell them like, hmm.. maybe in june? and if they agree, you know what that means? i'll be seeing you guys as early as next year!! aint that cool! keep praying and hope my plan works out!!


David,

Hey bro! you own! i really have to thank you for being such a fun guy to be with.. haha.. how's your back? i do hope you get well soon! coz i hate to see you being restricted by the pain in your back! alright?.. next time no more piggybacks, or somebody gonna get reeeal hurt ok? your 武术 rocks! next time we meet i want you to be my 师父! hope i can see you soon! =) thank you for the chess game, i think i won by a fluke.. haha.. and thank you for your support to my show on the bus! you sing well! thanks 2 gracie 2! you two helped me out a lot on the bus..
ok then! hope i'll see you soon! when i visit i wanna do a human chain again! this time you lead! ^^

Thank you! Terima kasih! Arigato Gozaimaz! 谢谢你! Danke!

P.S. wait up for my letter 2! Get well soon!
















this camp was a life-changing one for me. it wasnt so good at the start, but it was something so perfect in the days nearing the end of the camp. well, i guess it wasnt the camp that changed me, but i still have to thank the camp! coz without the camp i would never have known all these amazing people! thank God for the opportunity!

i cant believe i was there for two whole weeks! it felt like a day to me..
arriving at the hotel, eating at the canteen, buying magnum ice cream after every single meal (they only cost 3 RMB!) =) , walking around the humongous campus, practising wushu, taking photos, sitting at the corridor writing my prayers, roaming around 6th floor after bedtime, visiting room 617, sharing my food with others, eating tasteless noodles at night, going on trips on bus no.5, walking around the hotel looking for people to sign my shirt, joking around with david, watching grace write me a shirt, writing on other people's shirts and caps, buying jelly and giving them around, going on a christmas boat ride shouting and screaming (my goodness this was the best christmas eve i've ever had), waving to unknowing pedestrians from the bus, singing songs with the people, watching mtv and dancing around the room (sad u guys from 617 didnt join me..) , singing and screaming like a screaming machine in my room with yehezkiel, following 朱帅哥 around on the tours, sleeping with mtv on until morning (woke up at 3am just because i heard pop star by ken hirai.. fell asleep right after the song ^^) , getting annoyed by louis, joking with maydo and gang, writing cards for grace and david, buying them ice cream =) , running out of cash, getting to know what's so wrong about drunk people and foul language, sharing my past year experience with others, getting interviewed 5 times!, appearing on television and newspapers (yay!) , climbing over 200 steps to feed some fish, buying an ice cream at the top and going back down again just to end up paying money to throw at dolls (i got 2! and i gave them away as presents! i gave one purple rabbit to Grace ocz she had a brown one ^^) , having a doll fight with susanto on the bus, listening to others singing on the bus, making a fool of myself =) , massaging anyone who has aches in my room, giving christmas presents, getting mashed while taking photos, performing as best as i could, learning nan quan from grace (i still dont get it! teach me next time!) , holding the down position till my legs hurt so much i couldnt walk properly, having meetings and gatherings with the group, going out to eat ice cream in the park, watching the performances, learning german from maydo..
ohwell.. many more! but at least now i believe i've been there for 2 weeks! i cant do all those things in one day!

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To my group and everyone, you guys really rock! yahoo!! thank you guys for everything! for making this camp such an unforgettable one!

Ko Chris, thanks for taking so much trouble to take care of us! =)

Mum and Dad, even though you left early, we still thank you for all you have done for us! ^^

Ivan, 2nd time camping with you, it rocks! let's go on the next camp together again! ;)

Raymond, 2nd time camping with you too! next time dont lose your wallet! =P

Thomas, had a great time! shake it, thomas! =P

Yeremia, hope living with Job want so bad! heheh.. cya soon cousin! ^^

Yehezkiel, hey room mate! you're so fun! haha.. you left ur CDs here with me, i'll pass them to my dad soon! i'll miss staying with you! x)

Shella, you rock! you've been such a great friend! take care ok? cya soon! =)

Nikko, you're one specially funny dude! rock on! buy me something from hong kong! wahaha ^^

Melissa, i think my bag is spoilt after all your pulling! lol.. try not to punch people too much! =P

Ardi, last year andrew, this year you! which member of your family am i going to camp with next year? ?.?

Michael, you're 13! too young! stop chasing girls already! haha =)

Vincent, billabong! lol.. suneo, jangan nakal ya! dont be naughty! wahahah! ^^

Susanto, wushu captain! you rock! but i'll never beat you coz i dont get chance to practise! =(

Job, well another camp gone! hope we can go next year, brother you screaming machine! =)

Lois, dont be so annoying next time! even your neighbours in the hotel says you're noisy! rahh!!

all right! thats for everyone in the group!



















alright.. here's a continuation of my super duper long post! =D

okay where do i begin? wushu class! 武术班! alright then! the guys from my group were teamed with the rest of the indonesians in the camp! how i wish we were teamed with vanuatu, but ohwell, God has his reasons! i made some good friends from my wushu class too! people like maydo, evan, yohan, edwin, abraham, blablabla.. wushu wasnt easy, honestly.. i had quite a tough time trying to remember the moves and executing them the right way!

i tried to learn 南拳 from grace and im like, "huh? whats that again? do it slowly!"

then she went "this way, this way, and then this way!"

"uhh.. okay.."

Then i try to execute the moves and i end up falling over coz i stepped on my own foot. =P

ohwell, i just have to stick with 长拳 until i meet grace or david again! then my 师父s can teach me slowly, and we can combine both our moves together to make a really good performance! agree on that? yeeha!

alright, talking about wushu class.. it was pretty unfair some of the other groups get to use 剑and 棍.. considering all of us were of equal status.. whats worse is that the class learning 剑 had the chance to learn 舞龙 too! their group's final performance included swordplay, flags, dragon dance, and they even had fans! no fair! our group, or any other group, deserves a chance to use all that too! grr.. i was so pissed off.. like, whats so special about them? they get all the good stuff! blah! why am i so angry you may ask? well, i saw a little kid from the 空拳 group standing at a corner all by himself, watching them practice! i still can recall the expression on the poor kids' face, it was disappointment and envy! RAHH!!

anyway, my post here isnt for complaining.. i just couldnt resist.. coz it was sooooo unfair..

my post here is meant to be a happy one! so lets continue! =)

my group had a chance to do 竹竿舞 with a few borrowed sticks.. it wasnt much, but i like it! here's a photo!! ^^



















looks good eh? it's fun! anyway, our group also had a chance to play soccer with the locals.. sadly it wasnt really a real team that they sent to play us! =( we ended up winning by tons of goals, i lost count.. we also played 毽子, it was really fun!

anyway, in my opinion, we had the kindest and the best teacher of the lot! 赵海军老师! he really rocks! he has his own way of motivating the group! =)

talking about wushu.. there's my rival susanto!! rahh!! i practiced on the landing in front of the lift every night while he was in his room eating noodles! and yet he still beat me flat! T.T..

but we ended off the 2-week camp with a blast! we rocked! yay! i loved our performance, even though i couldnt see how the others were doing.. but from the applause we got, the whole 2 weeks were truly well worth it!! =)

have a good time!

haaaaaaaachooo!!! omg i just finished my maths hw.. amazing.. anyway here's what happened so far to my holidays =)

1. bangkok training tour, i guess u all very much know this already

2.chen li children's camp, ohwell, was fun

3.usual training and gym, tiring

4.homework, sian..

5.training camp, kinda sleepy

6.trip 2 indonesia, you wouldnt believe it, tickets for narnia was at rp.15000, which is less than 3 bucks kiddos

well, it isnt as simple as this list, i have tons to write. but hey, i've gotta save it all till the end of the holidays right?

anyway, next 2 weeks i'll be in china =) want anything, message me. i might buy something.

i might.

and i wont be celebrating christmas here, so here's a very early greeting.

Merry Christmas everyone!! and have a good time!

My wish is that other people's wishes can come true. heheh.

wont you wish that my wish will come true too? =)

i'm a mess

haha im going crazy.. everyone's so happy and cheerful, im trying to be happy and cheerful too..

but i cant..

all the time im troubled by all these.. i dunno why
anything im doing,

nightmares consume me in my sleep
thoughts freeze me up all the time

i can be joking this moment
and feeling down the next

sometimes i just feel like lying down and think things through
when those moments come
i am always unable to do anything to relieve myself of the suffering
the torture
the agony

all i can do
is pray

God help me

Shred me up when november ends

hi kiddos.. long time no blog eh.. much has happened since the last post..

well, im in a state of depression now..
why is this happening to me? i really cant go on like this..
i cannot say who, coz gossips will start flying around like migratory birds..
but if i keep it to myself, can i handle it?
can i handle the feeling? that i cannot tell the person, in fear of causing trouble?
argh..

im such a loser
im such a failure
im such an idiot
im such a freak
im such a let down

im a goner

get me? imma goner..

imma idiofailosefreakoletdown..

HAHAHA

it's just that.. i cannot bring myself to say a thing.. whenever i think of it, whenever the person looks away.. i can feel my heart sink.. i just cant get near enough..

someone spare me this suffering

shred me up when november ends

zhng my blog =）

heyy.. welcome to my blog.. my name Jo.. this post is called "zhng my blog"..
you got blog, you dont like? come look for me, Jo..

Dont get it?
never mind.. insider joke.. anyway i'm back from Bangkok.. so will blog more often..



my trip was kinda ok, albeit a challenging one.. The only fun part of the trip, i'd say, was the matches.. wish i could play more of those.. the b div literally just played one team, the Thai National Womens' Team.. the rest was left to the C div to settle, although in the last match against Ramkhamhaeng University we played 2 innings..

matches = 爽!!

the matches were as fun as they were challenging.. they hit the inside so well that i had to whack the outside.. good training i would say.. more than half their team were batting left though, so keeping them down was easier.. imagine pitching against a whole team of rightie inside hitters..

ok anyway, bread is my friend.. others dont understand my pain, and i wont bother explaining it.. so i just have to 忍 all this treatment im getting just because every other person can eat other stuff properly and i cant.. 哼.. everyone come on la, just piss me off so i can drive myself to the grave earlier..

i wont write about shopping coz all it'll do is flame singapore shopping malls.. 你们如此 kiasu and 奢侈, dont waste more land to build a Seacon Square in Singapore.. Waste land only.. thats why i wont say anything..

i dont understand. 这么多麻烦,乃是为了一件这么小的事. 我只可以唉声叹气..

be back soon =)

Rahh..

havent blogged in aeons, and no one's tagged in aeons.

what a sad blog =) ..

Holiday! well, never thought this day would come so fast.. ohwells, but i bet it'll end as fast as it came. am i right folks?

"YEAH!"

lol.. bored stiff.. double knockout cancelled.. Rahh!! now i cant sleep.. itching to whack a ball as hard as i can..

"Umph!" (me =) )

"TONG!" (bat, silly..)

*zoooomm* (ball zooming thru the air)

"Clank!"(sound of the ball hitting a car outside)

"YES!"(sound of happy me =) )

can't imagine how good it'll feel.. Rahh!!

training later, but i'll bet my pillow that i'll be pitching the whole training.. sad la.. Rahh!! what with yh away in thailand.. i guess this is just my desserts, i ps him for dunno how many holidays already =) ..

sian!! my computer cannot support chocobo racing in FF7!! Rahh.. now i have to abandon my game.. (T.T) .. back to mvp..

holiday homework?

"got two months to do lah."

Thats what they all say. so i'm gonna surprise myself and attempt to complete my hoomework!

i know i wont =)

one more thing

Chinese O level.. not sure if the A is mine.. Rahh.. got 5 months to wait..

All in all, everything in this blog comes up to one conclusion

RAHHHH!!!!!!!!

omgwtfkkjla? wow ah yh

argh.. stm is kickin in i cant remember what happened thru the week.. lol so i'll just do 3 days..

friday. fried.

well, what can i say. the whole morning was spent in that weally weirdo weather that was so absolutely cool. ha! hot and cold at the same time. and to make things even better, shite, we had a so absohorrendouslyhumongous net to keep us company the whole morning! sounds fun? if it doesnt, well screw you.. ok so then after that training. trust me it was hell. ok? i ended up so darn shaggetered. anyway, went home to sleep.

saturday. open house.

nothing to say about saturday. only wanna say it was a darn big failure. we ended up playing our own games. and everyone got sunburn =)

sunday. free refills!

uhh.. morning went church, then went to watch softball at kallang.. safsa lost to singapore under 18 or 19 (rj) by 2 runs i think.. well, wasted. after that went to kfc with poon edmund ben oh marcus and yh(haha).. drank a lot coz they had free refills. anyway, after that went to jam(you got owned yh) then went home, slacked, the end.

hope CWS beat the crap out of angels. ha.

Over? blah.

awwwright people! since i get so many update demands.. here's your update!

hmm.. we ended on friday last post didn't we, so i go on with my story..

Saturday. well.

they were very smart to put in a weekend in between the exams to let us "study".. haha.. i guess everyone slacked for the weekend, ohwells.. all i remember about saturday is going for tuition.. it was an a maths tuition but crikey, i was doing e maths.. lol.. anyway, was feeling kinda guilty for not studying much but who could resist the urge to slack after a series of exams? went home, watched tv, slept.. and to think i told myself that i would study properly on sunday.

Sunday. oh i just got ps-ed.

woke up at 7am to go church.. the sermon was kinda insteresting, so i managed to write some notes down.. ha! rarely used to.. anyway after sermon was a fellowship gathering.. or more like a farewell gathering for willy.. well i must say he was very nervous, but he pulled the sharing session off.. and after willy's farewell there was a kinda corny performance to inform us about the youth camp.. well, i was told my class wanted to study together after the fellowship, but walao they just disappeared like that.. i ended up studying alone.. blah.. after a while i decided to go home.. lol.. tio ps liao where got mood to study.. anyway, went home, slacked.. haiya.. and i felt that i was doomed for monday.. fell asleep with that thought in my head. ouch.

Monday. e maths and history.

as usual, wake up early, read thru topic, go school.. went to school and stoned there for very long. lol. anyway no point reading through again. stoned for quite long, then suddenly mr pillay came into the class and gave us last minute notes.. but whatever, i didnt read it.. after stoning for a while after that we went for assembly.. after assembly went in for exam.. e maths first, paper one.. i remember the question. i forgot what cos 30 was.. argh.. but whatever, overall the paper i should score luh.. anyway after that history.. just anyhow pia luh should pass.. hohoho..

Tuesday. Over?

Well, physics.. i think i did ok lah.. anyway after exams i threw with yao xian.. mr goh told us we would be playing a double knockout on the 1st and 3rd of november.. look forward to it! hahahaha.. wanted to go to yaoki's house after exam but sadly my ma said my bro needed help for chem, so i went home.. when i went home and offered my help, guess what time he asked me a question. 10.30 pm.. well.. what to do? let it be.

Wednesday. Goal! wow ah.

Alright, woke up late today coz im not taking bio and dont need to go to school! anyway, 2day i went out with edmund, yh(sorry missed u out), marcus, seng wei and ben.. when everyone reached, guess what.. we had 3/4 of the team out already! lol.. pathetic number huh. we went to lido to watch Goal!.. not a bad movie luh.. those people at the back were damn noisy though.. felt like shouting, but wouldnt that make me like them? so i kept calm and enjoyed the movie. lol. after movie went to hmv and cineleisure to find cd, and then we went home. i went walking around and bought some oranges, then i went home. then slack until now. update. heheh

one lesson learnt 2day?

Follow your dreams.

So i'll follow my dreams. i'm gonna be a professional player. =)

T4wk4 part II..

here goes, another small part of my life story, but something i'm sure will have a great effect on my life, EXAMS.

Well we stopped at wednesday last post din we? now we go on. Thursday.

Hmm.. as usual, woke up at 4.30 in the morning to look through the main points again.. then went on to school for geog! reached school early in the morning and suddenly i remebered i didn't bring string for mapwork! i looked around and asked a lot of people they all said very big "NO"s.. wayayayaya!! howhowhow.. but in the end i found yaoki! lol! thank goodness.. he gave me a super thin string but i'm grateful for it anyway! was planning to use shoelace if i had no choice..=P .. hail the yaokiki!! wahahah.. so then went on for the exam.. omg so many things to write and yet so little time to do! 2 hours not enough luh! i bet i just scraped geog.. and so, the exam ends. after the exam went to j8 with cheng yew, yaoki, shawn and alvin and guess what. they pang seh me and chew and left us to eat at mac alone. blah.. anyway, that's about all.. after that was study, fielding in my room, and sleep. Zzzz...

The continuation of the recital of my miserable existence. Friday. Today.

Couldn't wake up at 4.30 in the morning to relook chem. was too sleepy. haiz. anyway woke up at 5.30, left home at 6.. dunno why every morning my bus always synchronizes with kenji.. everytime i stop at the school bus-stop he would be walking past it. lol. and so up to the class that has been my "home" for nearly a year.. 3-8.. when i went in only marcus yap was inside and so i just ate my bread, sat there and revised chem, realising that i don't know a lot. ohwells nothing that a session of last minute revision can do anyway. i put down my book and wandered around the school, just for kicks.. ok then wtf when mdm whiny endang came in our class in the morning she started to kb the whole class coz of the anniversary dinner form.. so darn annoying.. especially since i've thrown mine away.. then assembly was in class, did all the usual stuff but i was honestly, SUPER annoyed when endang started to whine when we were doing out PRAYERS. who does she think she is? Shouting and scolding us when we were praying? I just tried to ignore the shouting but i was annoyed to the extremes. what luck, a teacher like that. After that i had no mood to do the chem paper anymore, but what could i do? i have to sit for it! and so the exams went on.. dunno why it was especially cold and my hands were freezing.. should have brought a glove.. =P .. and i never expected a crossword to come out for section b!! aiya.. got 5/6 for the crossword anyway.. "allotropes" totally slipped my mind.. i was thinking so hard for something with an "o" as the 4th letter and another "o" as the 7th letter, and so desperate to fill up the empty gap in the crossword that i came out with my own word, "MONOATOMICS".. I PWN THE WORLD!! lol looking back, now i think it was pretty dumb.. what a joke! i deserve to be laughed at.. <------(people start laughing at me "WAHAHAHAH")
ok so anyway went to j8 with chew, yaoki, ming feng and alvin again.. this time we ate mac together tho.. and i owe chew $2.. well, anyway then chew forgot his notes for history! but i'm a nice guy i go back to school with chew.. <-------(Marcus' BHB sensor must be blinking).. anyway on the way we met mr goh and we told him we were going to school to take notes.. well i think he thought we went to "do something".. anyway then walked to school, and back home.. good exercise for little me, who hasn't done much physical work other than fielding in my room at night.. lol.. looking forward to the next training! i wish i could start the 2006 season right now.. i feel my peak approaching! grr.. I WANT THE TEAM TO BE CHAMPION!! after exams i'm going to WAR! i'm gonna pia on my basics++ and master the riser (i'm still noob).. Must at least pitch an average of more than 70 strikes for 100 pitches! (dun worry yh we can do it, the most important thing is to get the feeling and just keep doing it.. and do it right..) and so.. back to where i am now, in this lonely and miserable existence filled with so many series of ups and downs.. Sitting on my chair typing this blog entry out onto my laptop. ohwells.


And here's to all terrorists out there,

it's time you people start to rethink about what you have been doing. well, you might be thinking, "well, not much, only planted a few bombs and killed a few people with it.. So what?"

Well if you're thinking like that, time to think this over.

Is it right to kill innocent people? is it even logical for you to kill people of other religions just for the sake of spreading your religion? even if you managed to convert the whole world, have you spread the rightful message that is the essence of your religion? NO. For the sake of humanity, please stop all these killings. imagine if someone from another planet wants to conquer earth, everything would be easy for them coz we're wiping each other out. Again i plead, stop all this violence that is going on.

Well, if you still don't change your mindset, i only pray to God that he will spare your soul from eternal suffering..

well.. i think i spent too much time typing this entry.. to all doing your exams, good luck! =)

come back soon..

T4wk4..

heheheh.. t4wk3 pang seh my blog liao.. now i slack a bit from geog and write a post.. muahahah..
ohwell ohwell.. dun talk abt wk3 liao la i forgot everything about it.. talk about the 1st 3 days of t4wk3..

mondaeeeee.. start of the exams!! blah.. feels kinda scary.. never really studied to my fullest potential.. well, anyway the english compo was ok, functional we had to write a blog entry (hah! i got experience!) but COMPRE was.. was.. was.. erm.. never mind.. the aircon was super-duper-uber cold! i was freezing and didn't bring my jacket.. lol.. anyway then after that i went home and read a bit of chinese, then sleep.. =)

tuesdaeeeee.. 2nd day of exams!! the first thing i told myself when i woke up at 4.30 a.m. was "don't screw up too bad can liao lah!" then i read a bit of chinese for an hour or so and went to school.. paper 1 i tried my best.. hope i can score to pull my paper 2.. lol while doing paper 1 so many ppl went to the toilet that the teacher got so pissed no one was allowed to go to the toilet anymore.. HA!! paper 2.. when the teacher gave me the paper i was like (-.-") <"oh no"> but then when i opened the booklet i almost went "LOL".. haha.. han zi i confirmed get 8/10, xu chi confirm more than 6/10, zao ju not so sure.. but confirm pass.. then the rest all "shrouded in the mist of mystery".. wahahah.. uh.. i brought my jacket!! but wth my hand still freezing.. i was joking about bringing gloves for the exam.. haha.. after exam went to class for ss revision by mr pillay.. then went for physics tuition.. was early so sleep down there dunno how long.. must emphasize again.. those 3 st joseph ppl in my class are damn annoying! blah.. whole day whole life make so much noise distrupt lesson.. maybe i change class horr.. then walked back home, studied a maths and slept..

Wednesdaeeeee, which is today.. hmm.. woke up at 4.30 in the morning as usual, but when i walked out of the room.. "what on earth??".. the whole living room floor was flooded and no one closed the windows.. darn.. why must it rain like this on the only day mum is away? i ended up taking the hour to mop the floor instead of studying.. then i went to school for my exams.. A maths.. not what i say is a difficult paper luh.. only a few qns not sure.. out of 80 i should get like 50-60++ lah.. Social studies is the one that i'm not too sure.. hmm.. erm.. nothing lah so i walked to j8 to eat, then went home read abit of geog.. and blog.. which is now

Thats all.. come back to read soon!

uhh.. T4Wk2

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T4Wk1

Ok the 1st post after my posts makeover...
Term4 Wk1

Monday
Last week of training.. haiz dun wana study but i must.. trying to listen during school and doing my work.. Wa kao Monday felt like the end of the week.. Argh.. Circular measure is a tough thinking topic luhh.. One thing about maths is that the theory is always easy, to apply the theory is SEEBEI HARD LA!! I invented a new mini-baseball game using the keychain i gave poon!! i should go and copyright it lorr! u go ask poon.. it's damn fun la! Spent the whole chem lesson playing it! Ok monday after school had training.. Gym 1st then got training.. trying to increase weights.. so gym gym gym then went off for training.. SAFSA ppl came then we played a game with them.. But everytime i'm always playing against the others, coz have to pitch.. sianz so i went and pitched but ball got whacked a few times and got a few errors.. haiya we lost the one-inning (coz got rain) game 2-0..
After the game we continued training while the SAFSA guys went off.. did long hit and batted 1st.. sky so darn dark i couldnt see the ball.. haiz bat until so lousy.. only a few good hits.. then went and fielded.. HA!! not bad lorr i ran and dived and caught a grounder hit by iggy.. SHUANG!! by then was beginning to rain liao so we kept equipment but it rained so hard i couldnt go home.. the lightning was CRAZY.. so i stayed in school to do homework until 7.30.. was super hungry but rain and lightning havent stop yet.. so no choice i walked home in the rain with two super heavy bags.. when i reached home i collapsed onto the floor right after i stepped in.. my mum had to practically peel me off the floor.. haha.. then i was too tired to remember anything i did after that.. end of monday! haha..

Tuesday
Basically i did nothing significant.. haha.. only go school study, then went tuition.. tuition was damn pissed luh.. haiya.. those st joseph de.. annoying.. then while walking halfway across the road waved goodbye to rachel, then walked home and did homework.. thats all i remember about tuesday.. haha..

Wednesday
As usual, study again.. so much stuff to do! but afternoon assembly moved to morning.. Mr Lee propangandaing again.. he's mad! can talk for one and a half hour like that.. haha.. tell story about him kopping trees from braddel westlake.. then talk about those 6 ppl in hospital who got dengue.. DAMN WRONG LA!! he say what got some scgs girls go there visit them and "make them happy!" LOL. ok. then blablabla SS period no teacher coz the bimbo left to study.. so slack period.. then last lesson was geog lecture with 3-2 and 3-7.. Coastal processes what longshore drift, oblique angle, offshore bar WHATEVER.. went gym after tt.. I HATE Power Clean!! Ok so gym gym gym then training! kinda fun la ok i love the warm up.. then go home mug.. thats Wednesday!

Thursday
Couldn't get up.. lol my whole body was aching like mad.. but still went to school.. lesson lesson lesson then double chinese do tian xie han zi.. do one and a half hours!! wa!! a LOT of words i never even see before!! die sia a few more weeks its o lvl chinese liao.. ok then study study and then i forgot how the rest of the day was spent.. lol most probably studying.. OH YA!! I did 100-straight crunches just before i slept..

Friday
omg the last training day!! dun talk about school liao la!! gym gym gym again.. Power clean for two sets in a row! wa my hand is BLISTER-INFESTED! ouchouch.. so after gym i went and wore "Rocky" inside my glove then trained.. haha.. U wanna know what "Rocky" is, ask any softballer in CH.. lol.. Pitch with YH.. then do erm.. 10-10-10-10.. inside high, inside low, outside high, outside low.. do until very late.. then walked home and collapsed at the doorstep again.. but i peeled myself off the floor! haha.. friday! woohoo.. sleep......

Saturday
The whole morning did my 2-month overdue research paper.. bet with marcus i would be studying at 8 in the morning.. and he bet his left ball! ha! i won! but who in the world would want to deprive marcus of his left ball?? haha.. so left home at 11.30 for the sports award thing.. Me and Jun Cheng became the noob AVA guys! haha.. the auditorium lights so guai lan one.. then i kept going out coz the air-con inside the control room spoilt.. So hot!! then the speaker inside the room keep turning off by itself.. Annoying! blah.. Then when the thing over we went to primary school canteen to eat.. Marcus' picture at the primary school side was SUPERDUPER funny! haha!! i was rofl.. laugh until mad.. then played the huge chess set with andrew.. I lost! all because edmund and yi ming was helping him! hah! and marcus had no idea what we were doing.. lol.. then went tuition a maths.. did the mgs paper for 2 hours then went home watch condor heroes.. then sleep!

Sunday
Wa today morning wake up go sermon.. then class was sianz.. then took bus, transfer to mrt, then walk home, eat, finish my research paper, then blog! hah! I'm gonna mug already! Ciao!
hope this change will make people read my blog more!! haha=)

To Make People Read My Blog

I am gonna take this step to make people like YOU read my blog. Ok??

NO more poetic stuff
NO more song lyrics
NO more "deep" stuff
NO more moral ed stuff
NO more philosophical whatevers
Daily experiences EVERY post
If these steps dont work
It'll be my turn to ps my blog =)

Purpose of Life

Have you ever thought of this question..
What is our purpose in life?

Study? nope.
Work? no way.
Money? huh.
Slack? never.
Play? I wish.
Enjoy? In my dreams.
Winning? nah.
War? That's dumb.
To love? maybe..
To follow Jesus? yes! but it's not easy to do so..

We have to study the bible,
Work for God's kingdom,
Give our money as offerings,
Never slack off,
Play the game of life,
And enjoy it!
Fight the war for God,
And win!

Cool huh. inspiration=)

If you think you can't do what is stated above,
You're terribly wrong!!

Contact me anytime thru fone or leave a msg on tagboard,
We'll pray 2gether =)

He Is Here

Verse 1

A new lease of life
The departure of sorrow
The coming of truth
He is here

Pre-chorus 1

He sweeps through the fields
He sways with the trees
He climbs every mountain
He flows with the river

Chorus

Oh how great is His love
Oh how sweet is His mercy
The whole world is saved
Rescued by His love

Verse 2

How wondrous His deeds
How great his promises
He'll never leave you
He'll never forsake you

Pre-chorus 2

He shines with the sun
He smiles with the flowers
As bright as a fire
The Savior of men
The king of kings

Bridge

He dies on the cross to save us
Crucified for our sake
He lay down his life
For us all

Chorus x2

Jesus is here

Man In The Mirror

Verse 1
Looking into the mirror
I saw a man staring back at me
He looked so distant
Oh so far away
And I can't bear the sight of him

Chorus
He looked so lonely
Oh so lonely
There's no one there for him
He looked in the mirror
He saw a man
And that man is me

Verse 2
Looking into his black eyes
I saw emptiness within him
Weariness loomed
All around him
And I can't help but look away

Bridge
Oh how must I end this pain
Everything's fallen apart
Oh how should I end this suffering
Life is but a game

Chorus

And that man was me

Treasure

The priceless treasure
Not everyone has it

Not money
Not materialistic wants

You know the feeling
The warmth of your family
The warmth you feel
When you come back home

Not everyone has it
Not everyone who has it appreciates it
And not everyone who has it can find the true meaning
Behind family
Behind the care and concern from their families
Behind the bonds in our family
Which God himself gave us

Learn to appreciate
This gift from God
For nothing can replace

Your Family

God Bless

Hero

The soldiers are waiting
In the cold of the night

They lay awake
On the alert
Not daring to make any noise

A young conscript
Wakes from his uneasy slumber

He had dreamt of the imminent war
The order to charge
The clash of steel against steel
The desperate cries of injured men
The stomping of hooves

He wished it would never come
But deep inside he could not deny it

The enemies are approaching the city
His hometown
His life
His everything

He looked over the walls of the city
The surroundings were pitch black

And then he saw it
A flicker of light
Many flickers of light
Millions of them
Illuminating the horizon

He thought of his family
His friends
He was never going to let them down

He shouted the alert
And the men arose
Hurrying into their combat positions

Catapults were loaded with great stones
Archers pulled at their bowstrings
Swordsmen unsheathed their swords

The enemies were at their gates

The war cries of the enemy were deafening
The soldiers who were weak at heart cowered at the sound of it
But the gallant ones remained still
Unmoving
Preparing themselves to fight till the end

The conscript was ready for war
His mail shirt shining in the dark of the night
His sword gleaming with anticipation

The enemies had reached the gates
The archers on the wall shot many of them down
But there were too many

The catapults had destroyed a portion of the fortification
And enemy soldiers streamed into the city
Fierce fighting was going on

The conscript found himself in the frontline
Fighting with all his might
Parrying and blocking
Slashing and stabbing

Many fell before him
Many too fell before his company
For they were the best conscripts in the city

Soon his attackers were being attacked
And thus the first wave of enemies ceased

The conscript was as thankful as ever
He and his company had survived the attack

But before long
Another wave of enemies were approaching
And their orders were to hold their position
Till the last man was spent

Fortunately the enemies were attacking the west
And the east was safe for the moment

The conscript was sent on a patrol
Around the suburbs of the city
Where his family lay in hiding

He was walking towards his house
When his patrol of ten was ambushed
There was at least an enemy to every one of them

The ten men fought like true warriors
Not once in the fight did they falter
They fought fiercely against the enemies
But in the end only three survived the ambush

The conscript had been at the back of the patrol
When they were ambushed from the flanks
He had previously unsheathed his sword from his scabbard
In fear of stray enemy soldiers

He had been attacked by two savage-looking men wielding spears
He had cut off one man's head but another came to take his place
The enemies were skilled and were placing him in a tight spot
He desperately fought
Sustaining a few spear wounds
But he had amazing swordplay
And managed to get rid of his attackers after a while

When he saw that his friend was being cornered
And was about to be killed
He rushed to his comrade's aid
And killed his assailant

Only five of the ten were left
Yet many bodies were strewn around the area
The corpses of their enemies

They fought the enemy with such force
That they were either slain or forced to escape
Unfortunately two of the five were slain by an enemy archer
Before the archer was killed by a flying spear from the conscript

They were victorious
And returned to their commander
With the bodies of their comrades

News had spread that the enemies had entered the city central
The conscript rushed to the central
And saw a gruesome sight

The enemy general was stabbing his comrades with his spear
And using his horse to stomp on them
Giving them no chance to survive

The conscript was enraged
He wanted to teach the enemies a lesson
And so he climbed up to the top of the city hall with a bow in his hand

He aimed

And shot

It was a shot that sealed the fate of his enemies

The arrow struck the general's horse in the eye
And the horse toppled
Crushing the enemy general underneath

Instantly the enemies were in chaos
For they had no one to give them orders

They were annihilated by the city troops
Slain by the sword

And as the sounds of fighting ceased in the city
Dawn came

And the Hero lay down into a deep slumber
One that was well earned

...

Life is bitter
It brings

Suffering
Pain
Tears
Loneliness
Fear
Death
War
Sickness

Where is love when we needed it most?
Compassion?
Friendship?
Kindness?

Only in our hearts and souls

Everyone
Let's do our part
For the world
For the human race
For everything on this earth

Let us love others
As we love ourselves

It only takes a small spark
To set the flame going

The Prisoner

The night was cold
In a prison cell

A pair of bright blue eyes look out
Into the darkness of the night
Mist appears
As he lets out a long breath of air

This was going to be the night
The night of his life

His minuscule frame
Shrinks into the shadows
As the guard walked past

He takes a deep breath
And opens the previously unlocked door
A brick in his hand

The guard kept walking
Not aware of the danger looming

The prisoner advanced slowly towards the guard
Careful not to make a sound

He struck

The guard fell to the floor
Fresh blood trickling down his face
Not knowing of his impending doom

The prisoner was now thirsty

Yes

Thirsty for blood

He bends over
And gave the guard a blow
That gave no chance
For him to ever feel the warmth of the sunlight
And the feel of the breeze on his face

The prisoner suddenly awoke from his trance
And surveys the whole scene before him
He couldn't take it anymore

The prisoner was suddenly grabbed from behind
He struggled like an animal
So hard
That his hunter had to let his grip loose

The animal in him took over
And the hunter was hunted
The prey was prey no more

He was strong
He knew it
The wild uncontrollable power in him
Was unstoppable

He was congratulating himself
Feasting his eyes on his accomplishment
When a shot broke the silence of the night

It felt as though the whole world had collapsed
He felt his eyes dim

Pain is your friend
He thought

And he collapsed
with an evil grin on his face

The Run

Bottom of the 9th
2 down
Score was tied at 0-0

The batter goes up to the box
Thoughts race through his mind
Mariano Rivera is pitching
Seattle Mariners vs New York Yankees
We cannot lose this one

He gets ready
And steps in the box

Cameras flash
The crowd screams

His arms felt like lead
His muscles all tense
But he takes control
His mind overpowering his body
He felt relaxed

The first pitch comes in
It's a 4-seam fastball
He lets go
It was a ball

He calms himself down
Stepped out of the box to take a breath
And back in again

The next pitch comes in
It's a slider
It's coming into the strike zone
He swings
And misses
The count is 1-1

The crowd was louder than ever
He was getting distracted by the flashes of camera

Suddenly a pitch came in
Strike

He shook himself awake
And let his mind take over again

The pitch
A curveball
He stays calm and let the ball fall in
A ball

Another pitch
A 2-seam fastball
He checked
Just on time
A ball

Full count
Sweat was trickling down his face
His arms felt like rubber
But he told himself
I must and I will do it

The pitch
A changeup
It was coming in perfectly

He swings

The crowd roared as his bat made contact
The ball flew

Far

Going

Going

He runs
Silently praying

Gone

He let go a sigh of relief as he stepped on the plate
Victory is sweet

School

To students in Singapore, i guess school means

1. Work, Homework
2. Endless hours of torturous studying
3. Long hours trapped in a sub-human, squarish room, listening 2 d endless droning of d teachers
4. CCA!!!!! yay.....
OR
CCA!!!!! noooooo.....
5. Getting scolded

Interestingly, ppl in other countries apparently dont think the same..

Indonesia (survey from my friends there)
1. I have to work harder! 0.0"
2. Work AND play
3. Slacky place
4. I wanna play a sport
5. I'll kill myself if i don't score

Australia(from my cousin, even tho he's not australian he studies there)
1. Boring
2. Educational
3. Compulsory
4. Place to meet ur friends
5. I hate exams

Lol.. Juz some crappy stuff posted purely for the sake of fun

A True Friend

I found out
A true friend

Loves you
Helps you
Guides you
Condones you
Appreciates you

A true friend walks through
All the roads with you
No matter
Long or short
Wide or narrow
Rough or smooth

A true friend gives his/her all
To help a friend in need
Not a single thought
Of the sacrifices made

What more could you ask
Other than a true friend?

It may seem impossible
To have a friend like this

Well
We already have a friend like that

His name is Jesus

He gave up His all
Just to be a friend to us all

If you read this
Please
Go out there
And share the love
With your family
Your friends
Anyone

Share the love of Christ

peace

Happenings

For this post
No more poetic stuff
Just plain words
On the happenings all around

Alright.. basically these few days are really taking its toll on me.. Trying as hard as possible to adjust to "School Day Mode" lol.. Not getting enough sleep waking so early in the morning..

One school day feels like 5 days of the holidays.. Time really flew.. The holiday, to me, was over in a matter of seconds..

Training.. A lot of gym.. Although training now is fun coz we're sparring with SAFSA.. =)

Holiday homework almost done.. Aww man all my friends back home was laughing at me haha.. "Koq Singapur Liburan juga ada PR sih?"
or in other words,
"Why Singapore holiday also still have homework?"

How to answer to that question? lol.

=) 

Life

Sweet
Sour

Hot
Cold

Black
White

Peace
War

Laughter
Tears

Joy
Sorrow

Life

A wonder
A gift from God

Back!

Back again
In this place

Thoughts refreshed
Problems solved

Found my true friends
How dear the thought
Of times together

I will be back
Again, my home

Gone Home

I'm going home
Somewhere over the seas
On another coast
Somewhere I used to belong to

It feels funny
Half my life away from home
Sweet home

So now I'm going back home
To find myself
And finish my homework lol

Softball Training Camp

Early Afternoon
After training

Loyang chalet
Our destination

Then was training once more
Pitching on the beach
Sprinting on the beach
Sliding on the beach
It was amazing

After that
A 3.2 km run
Felt good

Dinner
Mr Goh cooked
It was one of the best spaghetti
I have ever eaten

Next morning
A 4 km run
Felt good too

45 degree leg raise
500+ chain pumping (including the repeated ones)
All I have to say
Ouch

Night was BBQ
And farewell to Boris and Gary
Hope they will go on playing softball

Went bowling in the morning
At 1 a.m.
Score was 127
Screwed up the 2nd one with a 92

Morning
We leave
For home

Goodbye camp

My fave pitch is curve
It's working perfectly
Watch out you batters out there

The Time

This is the time of my life

To rejoice
To celebrate
To enjoy
To relax

I'll get none of these
Till I wake up
And start to do my real job

This is the time
I go and give it my all

May God guide me
And give me strength

Thank you Lord

Mid Year Holidays

School's over
Students rejoice

They just got
Their well-earnt rest

Not me

Classrooms empty
Whiteboard's blank
How I miss those times in class

Homework piles up my table
I'm out of graph paper
Why can't I ever escape

Friends come and go
Many times I feel that
When they go
They'll never come back

Loneliness and work
The two things
I'll never escape

I just hope that
I will get used to this

Night -- My First Post

It's dark all around
I can see the shadows
On the ceiling
On the wall

Laughing
Having Fun
Happily Together

Something tells me
I'll never be that way

Ever