Trust

So much has happened.

Yeah in fact so much has happened I couldn't even find time to breathe easy, much less blog. Happenings, as experience taught, come in two packages. The good and the bad. I've had both. Lots of both, in fact. I'm still reeling from, I don't know, shock? That so many things have happened over such a short period of time, its just overwhelming sometimes.

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Friends. You make some, you lose some. You go on in life, you find out that people aren't so trustworthy anymore. It is appalling- and pitiful, really- that people have to be like that. It really isn't worth getting upset about; except for the fact that I actually bothered to trust, like I would trust any other. My most sincere thanks for breaking the trust I placed, for you have shown me how careless I was with something so precious. My gratitude goes to you, for teaching me a lesson in growing up, for teaching me to be distrusting. I am sure it will take me far in life; but please know that you have robbed something from me which I treasure so dearly. How are you going to pay for that despicable act of yours? You have brought me closer to your level, by taking that priceless treasure away from me. I will try not to let it evolve into hatred, because I know you will face the consequences someday. One fine day.

Meanwhile, take this in. I will never, ever sink to your level. I will not stoop as low as that. I can only hope you see the error in your ways and change. Change, for goodness' sake, or you'll regret it. You'll be such a pathetic, despicable thing for all your life.

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I think that's enough for today. I will continue, but that will be after EL mid-terms. You keep track of evolution, before it gets out of hand. Exactly what I'm trying to do.

Mm.

How brothers can be made, with a simple little nudge in the elbow and a smile.

It was heartwarming, and I was exceedingly fortunate, to be able to bear witness to such a wonderful encounter between two men. It was really thought-provoking how such a profoundly beautiful phenomenon can occur in such a common setting.

Watch this space for the full story coming in a bit. I'm lazy.

mmm..

Today everything just went back to what it was before, and it was as if it was all just a pleasant, pleasant dream; its not a dream though, and boy am I glad that the past few weeks have added so much colour to my life.

Although a large part of the enjoyment was depressingly ephemeral, it has really been a pleasure knowing that life just got a little bit better, that something within that experience itself has transcended the boundaries of the superficial and into the realms of the infinite. It was a very comforting fact to know- that I have gained something that cannot possibly be obtained by material means.

Now the issue is making sure I replace those flimsy gates to the realms of the infinite, and lock it up too.

Geez

I still did the roof in the end, but its alright! I'm still doing my part to help.

Today is going to be a good day! Going about my usual routine of rag and training later, so I'd better be eating my breakfast now..

Keep the spirit up Jo!

People..

Most of the time it isn't really what they do, how they behave or even how they treat others? Everyone's got something to be proud of, everyone's got a good side to them, and most importantly.. Every single person you meet, whether on the streets or anywhere else, they have their own dignity.

You've got no right to be stepping all over others that way, kiddo.

Tomorrow I'm SO going to do something that's not going to be on the roof.

hay

So arts camp was super. Ah, sorry. It was AWASAMA. Super has no As at all :D

I made quite a few friends back in camp, and they're awesome! But I can't help noticing that it is a different world that I'm stepping into. The people I meet are.. Different. Just different in a way that I currently cannot identify, and its pretty scary to be sailing right into these gray, unknown waters.

Yeah, maybe my definition of 'normal' has to be altered a bit to accommodate certain quirks, or maybe it is others' definition of 'normal' that has to be altered to accommodate me. From what I've learnt though.. Friends don't really need to be 'normal', do they?

I guess what's of essence is being true to myself and not letting the environment change much of who I am (:

ジョがんばって！

lalala

Orientation coming up pretty soon, quite looking forward to it but I have a feeling the flu's going to ruin things for everyone. Like how I had to take the trouble to dig everywhere to find that doofus thermometer to bring to camp. Started out bad already. Plus, I don't have a single yellow shirt and I'm supposed to wear one on the first day of camp. Awesome.

Have to start packing soon.. ジョさんがんばって！

They all live in an imaginary world, of which our world is but a shade of. Wonder if I'll find it?