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Sleeping at 9pm and waking up at 4am to study before going to school. That's just my typical school day. It is tiring but I have no choice. I'd expected JC2 to be tough and there's no way I'm going to give up anytime soon.
Keep going!
Monday, January 14, 2008
Thursday, January 10, 2008
Tuesday, January 8, 2008
School!
I still don't have my camera and that means no photos. Whee. I have missed so many picture perfect scenes that my deviantART account would probably have lost 10 zomg 11092834138 review deviations. Doesn't matter now though, what's done is done. These picture perfect scenes would just have to stay in my head. Pity the world can't see them.
Let's talk about school now. Its the second week of school and boy am I feeling tired. Lessons have mercilessly jumpstarted the day we first stepped into school and the oncoming school year just feels so ominous now. What with me forgetting most of the J1 subjects' syllabi and having to learn new topics as I go along with school. Yeah, I have been training every day other than Sunday and I think that got me sick, but I'm feeling much better now.
Having trained everyday other than Sunday, of course I have seen the J1s frolic around no matter rain or shine (they would have gotten themselves soaked either way) and thoroughly enjoying themselves. (of course, certain individuals are far from happy with their OG assignment, but its the class that matters really) I now think that orientation was just a mask to give us a good impression of JC life. It was fun though.
I realise that school and all its hustle has changed me, once again, back into the person I once was. It is indeed a difficult task to allow space for God when you're constantly doing work and training till you're almost half dead. I end up turning my back on myself, and the disappointment is unbearable.
Meeting with the junior class tomorrow. I don't know what they're like and I sure as heck hope they're within my scope of "okay" definitions. I know I shouldn't judge people like that but hey, don't we all want to have fun junior classes?
Okay that should be it for now, except for one argument to end it all the right way.
I D O N ' T L O O K L I K E M Y B R O T H E R. Period.
Let's talk about school now. Its the second week of school and boy am I feeling tired. Lessons have mercilessly jumpstarted the day we first stepped into school and the oncoming school year just feels so ominous now. What with me forgetting most of the J1 subjects' syllabi and having to learn new topics as I go along with school. Yeah, I have been training every day other than Sunday and I think that got me sick, but I'm feeling much better now.
Having trained everyday other than Sunday, of course I have seen the J1s frolic around no matter rain or shine (they would have gotten themselves soaked either way) and thoroughly enjoying themselves. (of course, certain individuals are far from happy with their OG assignment, but its the class that matters really) I now think that orientation was just a mask to give us a good impression of JC life. It was fun though.
I realise that school and all its hustle has changed me, once again, back into the person I once was. It is indeed a difficult task to allow space for God when you're constantly doing work and training till you're almost half dead. I end up turning my back on myself, and the disappointment is unbearable.
Meeting with the junior class tomorrow. I don't know what they're like and I sure as heck hope they're within my scope of "okay" definitions. I know I shouldn't judge people like that but hey, don't we all want to have fun junior classes?
Okay that should be it for now, except for one argument to end it all the right way.
I D O N ' T L O O K L I K E M Y B R O T H E R. Period.
Wednesday, January 2, 2008
December 2007
Hey people! I have returned from a well deserved, PS3-induced hiatus because school started and its such an anticlimax in my surprisingly colourful life over recent times. School has been a torture so far, even though there was nothing so tedious or arduous about it. The torture actually came from all the J1 people around, enjoying their orientation (yes, even on the first day with all the lame talks) and making me miss my own orientation so much. Where did all the orientation friends go? Those who had so much fun together with me as a group? PoorHC is the only school with full-council OGLs and I think that tradition sucks!
Already, the temptations have started to appear in my life. The temptation to swear out of peer pressure, the temptation of jealousy, the temptation of judging others, etc etc. It sure is hard being a human chasing after the ideals of Christianity. At least I know I'm trying, but its not enough for sure. I have been tested so many times but many times I end off disappointing myself deep inside, and probably God too. I know I am always in danger of doing the wrong thing, every second, every moment, but what can I do but pray? The heart and soul is willing, but the mind and flesh is weak.
I shall write about December 2007, one of the best months in my ephemeral but certainly slightly-more-than-negligible seventeen years of existence.
December started off as a holiday, which certainly meant that things could not possibly be too bad. The month kicked off ferociously , however, with one beautifully planned 'Synod Youth Camp 2007' which got me out of any previous pothole I was trapped in. New friends made, bonds strengthened and reinforced, I flew off to Indonesia with much reluctance to leave the newfound life in Singapore.
Back in Indonesia, I attended Sam's wedding celebrations. I did promise pictures but I'm going to post most of them at a later date as my dear brother has taken my camera with him to Bali. Here are some though! Click on the pics to enlarge.
:D
Practise for our song item!
Sitting around with my cousins..
Photo at the party!
Beatboxed for the song item!
Okay that shall be it for now. Meanwhile, I have decided to end this post here. It shall be continued in the near future..
Already, the temptations have started to appear in my life. The temptation to swear out of peer pressure, the temptation of jealousy, the temptation of judging others, etc etc. It sure is hard being a human chasing after the ideals of Christianity. At least I know I'm trying, but its not enough for sure. I have been tested so many times but many times I end off disappointing myself deep inside, and probably God too. I know I am always in danger of doing the wrong thing, every second, every moment, but what can I do but pray? The heart and soul is willing, but the mind and flesh is weak.
I shall write about December 2007, one of the best months in my ephemeral but certainly slightly-more-than-negligible seventeen years of existence.
December started off as a holiday, which certainly meant that things could not possibly be too bad. The month kicked off ferociously , however, with one beautifully planned 'Synod Youth Camp 2007' which got me out of any previous pothole I was trapped in. New friends made, bonds strengthened and reinforced, I flew off to Indonesia with much reluctance to leave the newfound life in Singapore.
Back in Indonesia, I attended Sam's wedding celebrations. I did promise pictures but I'm going to post most of them at a later date as my dear brother has taken my camera with him to Bali. Here are some though! Click on the pics to enlarge.
:D
Practise for our song item!
Sitting around with my cousins..
Photo at the party!
Beatboxed for the song item!
Okay that shall be it for now. Meanwhile, I have decided to end this post here. It shall be continued in the near future..
Sunday, December 16, 2007
Wheeeee
I'm online in the afternoon and hey, where in the world did every other person go? Guess I'm the best at timing my online visits. With nothing else to do but homework, gosh, I decided to blog!
Okay let me start this post with the most important thing in life. GOD! Lol. You guessed it huh? I'm still fighting to remind myself what I should do and what I should not, and its a tough struggle when I do the wrong thing consciously. I need serious help! Help pray for my weakness please >.<
I never really realized how much I missed my cousins until yesterday. What a sad fact! It felt really good to have everyone gather together again and it was really memorable. We had lots of jokes and laughter, and we took photos like it was free! (oh I forgot. its free!) I'll post some photos when I get back to Singapore! :D Oh and I took mega loads of photos when I was on the ferry and the plane. DeviantART's going to have a picture overload! Hahah.
Today I saw the third candle of Advent being lighted up and I was suddenly reminded of the fact that I had just slightly over two weeks to settle all my homework. Gosh. Two weeks before school reopens! -PANIC. Ohwell I know the candles are meant to remind us of more important things, but I couldn't help it. I remember we discussed it in church last week! So, I'm like, flipping through HAPPY (Humanitarian Aid Package in Physics for You) and feeling like collapsing because it has 28 full pages of questions. JC life is such a sad life. At least Chemistry is fine, but still quite excessive. GP is arduous, with "Time Tunnel 2" and "Issues and Ideas" which I doubt I will manage to complete by the end of the holidays. Math is ridiculous. They think we do math at the rate of 1 question per minute or what? There are TONS of questions in the booklet! Ah, at least the Econs teachers were merciful enough to grace us failures only with a few essays.
Count your blessings, Josiah. Count your blessings. Ohman.
I think I have to attempt to finish something now. I'll be back soon I hope :) God bless and take care y'all.
Okay let me start this post with the most important thing in life. GOD! Lol. You guessed it huh? I'm still fighting to remind myself what I should do and what I should not, and its a tough struggle when I do the wrong thing consciously. I need serious help! Help pray for my weakness please >.<
I never really realized how much I missed my cousins until yesterday. What a sad fact! It felt really good to have everyone gather together again and it was really memorable. We had lots of jokes and laughter, and we took photos like it was free! (oh I forgot. its free!) I'll post some photos when I get back to Singapore! :D Oh and I took mega loads of photos when I was on the ferry and the plane. DeviantART's going to have a picture overload! Hahah.
Today I saw the third candle of Advent being lighted up and I was suddenly reminded of the fact that I had just slightly over two weeks to settle all my homework. Gosh. Two weeks before school reopens! -PANIC. Ohwell I know the candles are meant to remind us of more important things, but I couldn't help it. I remember we discussed it in church last week! So, I'm like, flipping through HAPPY (Humanitarian Aid Package in Physics for You) and feeling like collapsing because it has 28 full pages of questions. JC life is such a sad life. At least Chemistry is fine, but still quite excessive. GP is arduous, with "Time Tunnel 2" and "Issues and Ideas" which I doubt I will manage to complete by the end of the holidays. Math is ridiculous. They think we do math at the rate of 1 question per minute or what? There are TONS of questions in the booklet! Ah, at least the Econs teachers were merciful enough to grace us failures only with a few essays.
Count your blessings, Josiah. Count your blessings. Ohman.
I think I have to attempt to finish something now. I'll be back soon I hope :) God bless and take care y'all.
Wednesday, December 12, 2007
I'm plugged!
Well hello again everyone! This time I'm blogging from Indonesia. Cheers to cable internet! Will be here till the 26th I think. Long way to go, but I'm sure it'll pass super quickly! >.<
I'm still missing camp. Aww. I'm not crying because I lost it, I'm smiling because it happened! I made quite a few friends that I know will be there to listen when I need it, and that really is one of the things I like about camp. The constant reminder that God is the BIGGEST and the MOST IMPORTANT thing in life, and that all of us are in the same quest of faith to be good children! People, always go back to the heart of it all! I know its hard sometimes, but always go back to God whenever you feel like taking control of the situation yourself. It has worked for me these few days, and I'm praying that it will continue!
Coming back to Indonesia feels like stepping right back into the past, just like what I told Josiah 2. I've spent the better part of my life fighting it out in Singapore, and that's where my 'life' is now. People often say that 'home is where the heart is', and I think I probably must have many many hearts in me, because my heart's always with so many different people. I recollect moments everyday about the good times, the laughs, the jokes, and hey. That's where home is. My friends, my family. Of course, who's the one behind it all? God, of course. God gave me friends, and I can't thank Him enough for them. God gave me family, and by golly don't I feel really blessed to have such a wonderful family!
The camp actually enlightened me somehow. Apparently behind those jokes and laughs and studying the Word, I was growing inside, without even knowing it. Wonderful, isn't it? I miss everyone!
I'm staring at a stack of homework right now, and I'm still wondering whether I should get down to doing it. I think, I think for a while more, and I've decided that I should do my work. God would smile when He sees me shaking off these lazy habits! That's it for now, people!
Keep yourself plugged in! Don't hesitate to contact me if you need the services of an 'electrician'! xD
I'm still missing camp. Aww. I'm not crying because I lost it, I'm smiling because it happened! I made quite a few friends that I know will be there to listen when I need it, and that really is one of the things I like about camp. The constant reminder that God is the BIGGEST and the MOST IMPORTANT thing in life, and that all of us are in the same quest of faith to be good children! People, always go back to the heart of it all! I know its hard sometimes, but always go back to God whenever you feel like taking control of the situation yourself. It has worked for me these few days, and I'm praying that it will continue!
Coming back to Indonesia feels like stepping right back into the past, just like what I told Josiah 2. I've spent the better part of my life fighting it out in Singapore, and that's where my 'life' is now. People often say that 'home is where the heart is', and I think I probably must have many many hearts in me, because my heart's always with so many different people. I recollect moments everyday about the good times, the laughs, the jokes, and hey. That's where home is. My friends, my family. Of course, who's the one behind it all? God, of course. God gave me friends, and I can't thank Him enough for them. God gave me family, and by golly don't I feel really blessed to have such a wonderful family!
The camp actually enlightened me somehow. Apparently behind those jokes and laughs and studying the Word, I was growing inside, without even knowing it. Wonderful, isn't it? I miss everyone!
I'm staring at a stack of homework right now, and I'm still wondering whether I should get down to doing it. I think, I think for a while more, and I've decided that I should do my work. God would smile when He sees me shaking off these lazy habits! That's it for now, people!
Keep yourself plugged in! Don't hesitate to contact me if you need the services of an 'electrician'! xD
Sunday, December 9, 2007
Synod Youth Camp 2007!
Well, well. What can I say! As opposed to most of the camps that I have been to, this camp is really something special that will probably be one of the milestones in my spiritual life! Wheeeeee~
I shall not write a day-to-day account because it is such a cliche.
It was something of a wake up call. I pretty much felt what it was like to be 'plugged in' to God every single day. The wake up call came through the many people around me who inspired me one way or another, and somehow there was this constant air of reminder that God was the center of everything. Another redeeming factor was my personal determination to help myself out of the abyss that I was in. Throughout the camp I tried to remind myself that the camp was called the "Synod Youth Camp" for a reason, and that I shouldn't bear any grudges even if I was treated unfairly in any way by anyone around because we were there to help each other grow.
Oh man it totally worked.
I feel really good to now have an experience that I can fall back upon. A period of time where I managed to subdue the evil within and bring out the best in me and others. It shall be my inspiration in tough times! Lots of that coming next year...
Another great blessing that God has given me this camp are great friends! I was really really lucky to have been assigned to the same room as two groups of awesome people. I found another JOSIAH. Kool! There were 3 Josiahs in camp. Muahahah. Our Joke Club was MEGA hilarious and memorable even though we only had one precious session of jokes. The first time EVER (other than Simpsons Movie) that I laughed for a whole hour without stopping! Ohmanohmanohman.
*Breathes in and breathes out* LOL (inside joke).
I shall take some time to write about the great people I met around in camp. Alright, based on Bishop Alan Stewart's message, I shall build this post with the most important thing first. God's first on the list, because I met him around quite a lot during the camp! Second would be my roommates! You guys totally owned, even though it caused me some pain =.= hahahah. It was a joy to be with you people. Seriously. Almost every moment in Classroom 23 was fun! Let's hope that our friendship will continue and follow through into something better, because we're linked not just by friendship alone but our dear God who brought us together to help each other out :) Third would be all the other campers that I got to know during the camp! It was a joy to be in the same camp as you all and I'll see you next year if the camp goes on! Haha!
4B! xD
It was a really good feeling to live my life as I did during the camp! I shall make an exception and break the rule of run-on sentences this time! Haha! All the friends I made, singing my heart out for every song even though I had lost my voice, all the cool jokes I told and heard, all the friendly punches and handshakes, all the happy conversations exchanged, all the hashbrowns consumed, all the laughs and stomachaches, all the ping-pang, all the yesterdays all my troubles seemed so far away, all the songs sung, all the hellos and goodbyes, all the smiles, all the photos taken, all the water games, all the not-so-watery games, all the electives, all the snacks, all the angel-mortal letters, all the prayers, all the blessings and ALL THE FUN! Phew.. Thanks to God for all that!
Rachall requested that I put pictures, so I'll put them up! :)
Picture with the chairman!
Colours many many!
I helped take this pic! Wheeee
Woo Eclipse!
Random canteen scene...
STONEY..
STONER!
Game plan... Kick #%@^!
Breathe in... Breathe out...
Josiah(s) ROCK! lol. Nicholas is FUNNY.
God blessed us with a nice view!
Group LOL!
Cool pic!
Chen Li people!
The captions are seriously screwed up heheheh. Who cares anyway! xD
I shall not write a day-to-day account because it is such a cliche.
It was something of a wake up call. I pretty much felt what it was like to be 'plugged in' to God every single day. The wake up call came through the many people around me who inspired me one way or another, and somehow there was this constant air of reminder that God was the center of everything. Another redeeming factor was my personal determination to help myself out of the abyss that I was in. Throughout the camp I tried to remind myself that the camp was called the "Synod Youth Camp" for a reason, and that I shouldn't bear any grudges even if I was treated unfairly in any way by anyone around because we were there to help each other grow.
Oh man it totally worked.
I feel really good to now have an experience that I can fall back upon. A period of time where I managed to subdue the evil within and bring out the best in me and others. It shall be my inspiration in tough times! Lots of that coming next year...
Another great blessing that God has given me this camp are great friends! I was really really lucky to have been assigned to the same room as two groups of awesome people. I found another JOSIAH. Kool! There were 3 Josiahs in camp. Muahahah. Our Joke Club was MEGA hilarious and memorable even though we only had one precious session of jokes. The first time EVER (other than Simpsons Movie) that I laughed for a whole hour without stopping! Ohmanohmanohman.
*Breathes in and breathes out* LOL (inside joke).
I shall take some time to write about the great people I met around in camp. Alright, based on Bishop Alan Stewart's message, I shall build this post with the most important thing first. God's first on the list, because I met him around quite a lot during the camp! Second would be my roommates! You guys totally owned, even though it caused me some pain =.= hahahah. It was a joy to be with you people. Seriously. Almost every moment in Classroom 23 was fun! Let's hope that our friendship will continue and follow through into something better, because we're linked not just by friendship alone but our dear God who brought us together to help each other out :) Third would be all the other campers that I got to know during the camp! It was a joy to be in the same camp as you all and I'll see you next year if the camp goes on! Haha!
4B! xD
It was a really good feeling to live my life as I did during the camp! I shall make an exception and break the rule of run-on sentences this time! Haha! All the friends I made, singing my heart out for every song even though I had lost my voice, all the cool jokes I told and heard, all the friendly punches and handshakes, all the happy conversations exchanged, all the hashbrowns consumed, all the laughs and stomachaches, all the ping-pang, all the yesterdays all my troubles seemed so far away, all the songs sung, all the hellos and goodbyes, all the smiles, all the photos taken, all the water games, all the not-so-watery games, all the electives, all the snacks, all the angel-mortal letters, all the prayers, all the blessings and ALL THE FUN! Phew.. Thanks to God for all that!
Rachall requested that I put pictures, so I'll put them up! :)
Picture with the chairman!
Colours many many!
I helped take this pic! Wheeee
Woo Eclipse!
Random canteen scene...
STONEY..
STONER!
Game plan... Kick #%@^!
Breathe in... Breathe out...
Josiah(s) ROCK! lol. Nicholas is FUNNY.
God blessed us with a nice view!
Group LOL!
Cool pic!
Chen Li people!
The captions are seriously screwed up heheheh. Who cares anyway! xD
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